24 January 2019
In my sophomore year of college, I entered the Contemplated Japan class in which the week after school ended the students traveled to Japan. In that class was my two dearest friends of that time, and actually they still are my two dearest friends. They were seniors then, so this was their last Agnes Scott Experience. The class itself was fun and interesting. We learned the basics of meditation and an overview of the history of Japan.
Being in Japan was an amazing experience. I was finally immersed in another culture. I was able to communicate a bit due to taking 2 years of Japanese at Agnes. My favorite parts of the trip was seeing the difference and similarities between the different cities in Japan. Each city had a 7/11 and or a Family Mart, but the architecture and the layouts were different. By being in the cities I was able to differ the slight subcultures that exist in Japan. The traditional culture of the historical city was completely different that the loud and bold culture of Tokyo.
The trip itself was were things became a little rocky. My psychiatrist not only tripled my dosage of daily medication, but also added two more only a month before we left for Japan. Because of that in Japan I did have a few breakdowns because my body and mind were not in sync. That made most of the other students annoyed of me. They complained to the professor, so she lowered my grade and told me that, “I’m a loner, but not by choice.”
Every single day I think about that sentence. It honestly really hurts. I have had many breakdowns on just contemplating that sentence in my mind and feeling that no one would ever like me, that I am unlovable. That is completely not true though. I have my two dear friends still by my side. Though we are states away we message every day and every couple of months arrange meetups for a weekend. If I was unlovable, I would not have them as friends. While that sentence still hurts and has ruined my options of that professor forever, I will not let it drag me down further into depression.
The History Learning Outcomes that I have associated with this reflection is number,
5. Apply the results of research, writing and speaking experiences within the major, along with experiential learning and career investigation opportunities (internships, externships, seminars or workshops conducted by history faculty and alumnae) to career planning and graduate school and job applications.
The Summit Learning Outcomes that I associated with the reflections are numbers,
1. Identify, explain, and analyze global themes, processes and systems
2. Demonstrate knowledge and skills essential for global engagement
3. Critically examine the relationship between dominant and marginalized cultures, subcultures or group
5. Recognize, analyze and evaluate arguments
6. Articulate and appraise problems and solutions from multiple perspectives, critically considering diverse sources of information
7. Recognize, analyze, and employ effective teamwork
11. Analyze human behavior or social relations